Have you ever doubted God? I have unfortunately. It amazes me that I can read the stories of the Bible and be so astounded with the faithfulness of God and then something “weird” happens and I start to doubt! Psalm 55:22 says: "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall." Some of you are probably saying, “But it's not that easy”. I agree. It requires that you completely loosen your grasp on the problem and let the Lord handle it. That is something I struggle with daily.
We moved to Boerne when I was in third grade, and with moving there comes other big changes like switching schools. So I enrolled in a new school and spent the next 6 years there. Unfortunately, these were not the most enjoyable years. We prayed but things didn’t seem to be getting any better, in my eyes. But, like always, God had bigger plans, I just didn’t see it yet. So I doubted at times. It’s not that I didn’t trust God, I just wanted to fix the problem on my own.
Now, I'm a sophomore in high school and although I still struggle with bitterness occasionally, the Lord has definitely gotten me on the road to healing as well as blessing me abundantly. I have amazing friends, an amazing family and an amazing God. It's always been tough for me to completely let it go and give it to the Lord but it’s a process. I would just like to reiterate that the Lord does not want you to carry these burdens, the Bible says he is willing to carry them for us because he loves us that much! Never doubt God, he knows what he's doing! :)